Condolence: Grandma,

I don’t even know where to start. I’m so heartbroken that you’re gone. This past year we’ve had many good talks where I let you know how much I truly appreciate you. Saying how thankful I was for letting us grow up in your home. For always wanting us to come back. To vacations in Disney every summer when we were younger. To us trying to talk about Disney now and if it would be worth it for us to make another trip. Talking about the movies and restaurants and making plans to try and go once things opened up. Patiently waiting for summer every year just so we could bbq and sit outside. Just so we had an excuse to drink rum and cokes together because of the nice weather. Our trips to the store, especially Home Depot where we would just walk around and look at different things we liked and picture what would look good in the house. Watching Emeril and complaining about how much we hated him and that nothing he cooked was special. I can’t believe you’re gone and we can’t do these things anymore. I’ve spent the last few years really trying to help you with anything you needed. Making sure I talked to you everyday if I could. I have so many voicemails saved from you because we always played phone tag and you left a voicemail every time. But I meant it when I was 6 or 7 sitting on the couch and I turned to you saying “I like talking to you” and you laughed and said you liked talking to me too. I swear we were only talking about cookies at the time, but its true I loved our talks. I’m sorry we didn’t do all we said we would, if I didn’t help you enough, I tried my best. I’m sorry I wasn’t allowed and able to see you or be there for you one last time. I know you know me and mom tried. We always did what we could to help you. Mom always made sure you were fed and okay. I always tried to make sure you had a smile on your face. May started off good. It was when we started going outside again. Listening to music. I cooked you scallops, shrimp and steak for mothers day. You underlined a part in my card that made me cry on my birthday. And then May ended with me holding your hands and crying because something was wrong. You kept grabbing for me. But also kept trying to smile at me through it. I got to see you once more on facetime but its not the same and it wasn’t enough. You deserved more. I could go on forever but I’ll stop it here because I know you know how I feel and what you mean to me. I hope you and daddy watch over, I know how much you missed him so take care of each other up there. I love you so much and I miss you so much. Rest in Peace Grandma. 💛